Stages toward Whore

I've felt myself descend farther into Whore two times so far. Each time has been during the height of sex, when Master's finally on top after making me hump away like a bonded animal for the past hour or two. When I experience the change, my normally subdued desire to cum becomes overwhelming. I feel like I should just go for it and cum. Master immediately slows down and keeps me from cumming. There's a period of time where we stay suspended like that, me pleading and trying to cum and him reminding me I'm not worthy of cumming and keeping me on the edge. Then, a crippling feeling of further worthlessness drowns me and I give in to the new change in myself and stop trying to cum.

The first change was when I matured from the feeling of having to cum all the time. Up until the change, sex was a struggle of me wanting to go for the cum, then having to pull back so I didn't actually cum. After the change, I felt a peace and like I didn't have to cum, I could just enjoy the feeling of sex and that would be enough.

The next change was when I fully realized that I wasn't worthy of cumming and probably would never be, to the point that trying to was a waste of energy. I also realized that my entire role as Whore was to fuck back when fucked and take whatever abuse Master felt like giving me. I think that one threw Master off for a few minutes because I magically went from babbling gratitude for every slap and pinch to just moaning and humping along to his rhythm. He told me to thank him after a particularly vicious spanking during sex and I sheepishly thanked him and explained after that I simply stopped because I felt that my opinions and feelings about what he did just didn't matter anymore.


I think I've started descending again into whatever is next, but I still don't know what exactly is next.